Bowing to the Shadow
What do you do when feathers scatter across your path? Transmute them into a fan. To direct the smoke of cleansing herbs, to cool the heat, to calm the soul.
Several weeks ago I felt I was on the cusp of something, something was brewing internally. I didn’t know the source, I didn’t know the reason, but I challenged it to come forth and so found myself in the process of deep shadow work. This was something I could have shied away from, but having made a vow to myself to work on my shit every day, I threw myself into the process with what I can only describe as reckless abandon. I put myself in situations in which I had to bow down to my vulnerability, I allowed myself to be triggered by the internal and external happenings. I watched as the universe brought situations into my life that would only intensify the shadow, and to this I also bowed down. It’s a funny thing when you are in the depths, to take a seat with your soul, to pour it a glass of wine and see what it has to say. To hold space for those parts of yourself that you don’t much care for. To this, again, I bowed down.
To anyone who came close enough to get a glimpse of what I was going through they would tell me “I hope you are okay, I hope this passes soon”, and to this I found myself replying “I’m not really okay, but that’s fantastic, and if it doesn’t pass soon, well that’s also fantastic”, because it may be tough, but having such an opportunity to reach a new level of self awareness is invaluable to me as myself - Drea, and myself as a carrier of a powerful medicine.
As I ascended from the darkness I found myself having left my job (stripping those layers), and in a position to dedicate myself fully to my work as a kambo practitioner. And kambo met me head on, allowing me an initiation of holding seven ceremonies in six days. To this, once more, I bowed down, in a state of true happiness and humility.
Those feathers that crossed my path, those were my shadows. And what did I do with them? I picked them up, I held them, I got to know them and I transmuted them into an energy that cleansed, cooled, and calmed.